Skip to main content

April 11



We all stare at the space between. 

Sit, Waiting for the next breath not to hurt so much. 

For it not to be real. 

But it is real. The pain and the sorrow. 

The grief and the finality of it creeps in. 

There are millions of tiny moments in every second, where thoughts of him cross my mind and I feel my throat tighten and my eyes fill with tears. 

I know one day it won’t hurt so much, but these days the sadness is so very present. 

Anyone who knew my Dad, knew what it felt like to be instantly loved and welcomed. His hugs changed lives. The warmth of them. 

He was always so calm, steady, strong for me and for us all. 

His wishes are to be cremated. 

We will not be having a funeral service for him in the coming weeks. 

We will wait, until the sadness is replaced by happier memories, and the gratitude of having a man like him in our lives for any amount of time, so widely loved by so so many is the focus for us all. 

And one day later this year, when the weather is warm and our hearts have found their way back to memories of him that come with laughter and not tears…..

…. that’s when we will have a party. A celebration of Scott and everything he was to everyone. 

When we are ready for that, We will tell everyone to come. 

Have a Rum in his name. And truly celebrate him. 

But right now. We take the needed quietness for what it is for. A time to reflect and heal. 

 



Comments

  1. ErinApril 11, 2022 at 7:50 PM

    Beautiful ❤

    ReplyDelete
  2. Cody RobinsonApril 11, 2022 at 8:06 PM

    Beautiful. My heart hurts for you all. Thank you for the updates and keeping us informed during this trying time. My thoughts and prayers for much strength are with you all. I’m so sorry. 💔😢🤗🙏🏻

    ReplyDelete
  3. UnknownApril 13, 2022 at 6:55 AM

    ❤️❤️ Thank you for sharing. Your words are so profound. Love to you all

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

March 24 . First Update on Scott

  Scott is now home with his family. We will use this forum to share any updates so we can let everyone know about what's going on. We truly appreciate your care and can feel the love from all across the globe. We would like time to process the news, as you can imagine its overwhelming. As much as it would be nice to be able to respond to messages and phone calls; texting back the same news multiple times, is something that feels too big to tackle at the moment. Here's what we know. Scott has pancreatic cancer that has made its way to other areas in his abdomen. It became noticeable around end of December with some stomach pains. The visit to the Cross Cancer Institute in Edmonton was today, March 24, 2022. The amazing doctors and care team answered all the questions that we, as a family, have had. The cancer is advanced enough that Chemo or other treatments are not a reasonable option. Scott does not want to spend what time he has left feeling the eff...
6 comments
Read more

April 9 1:43pm 💔

  Time was too short  Our time with our father has come and gone.  As we all know now there is never enough time.   We have spent the remaining time with dad alone and as a family holding his hand and talking.  We have read him all our posts and everyone’s responses.  Dad was the greatest man WE ALL knew.  We will strive our whole life to be half the human Scott was and still won’t come close to touching the lives he has touched.  The final days were some of the hardest moments of our lives as we watched his strength drained from him.  There were heartfelt moments and lots of tears as we sat around his bed saying goodbye.  At 1:43pm on April 9, 2022 the strongest man we knew started his new journey.  He left behind a huge group of loving friends and family.  We have all felt the love and hugs sent to us from all those he touched.  We want to thank everyone wh...
10 comments
Read more

Lessons from the first year

 April 9th.      Reflecting back on the last year, here's some things I know to be true. Life moves on at the same pace it did before. Pain of loss doesn't go away, it just becomes strength inside you. If you want to be sad all day, you can, but its not a good use of your time. Empathy grows, always So does compassion Sharing your experience might feel difficult, and although maybe not immediately, you feel better later knowing that you're not alone.  Happiness is a choice you need to make as often as humanly possible Being happy does not diminish grief, it means you are trying to be happy despite the pain you might feel inside. What others think of your grief journey is none of your business. If they think you're doing it wrong, let them.  You don't have to answer to anyone but yourself. Do what you need to do to get to being happy fastest. Outside doesn't have to match the inside. Smiling through the pain doesn't make it less authentic The only perso...
3 comments
Read more